You have to have a dream in order to have a happy ending. If you have no dream, then you are just spinning your wheels. How you live is completely up to you. So, if you want to have a happy ending, then you absolutely have to have a dream in the first place.
Accept that you actually have a dream. Something that might be hidden in the corner of your mind somewhere. Something that you might have put off until “another day.” I will start on it another “year”. Why not start on your dream today???
What is wrong with cleaning the dust off your dream, and saying, “OK, I will reconsider my dream. What is wrong with working on your dream one little step at a time? It is better to try and fail, then not try at all. If you do not try, then you will feel guilty that you did not do anything about it. Or you will blame someone else for you not being able to achieve YOUR dream.
I have an for you. Why don’t you ask someone for a little help? Someone that can help you get started. That someone is called a mentor. That someone can be someone who is in the field that you want to be in. Mentors are awesome because they had to start off somewhere, and they probably have an idea of the difficulty you are going through. Mentors do not do the work for you. Mentor can provide essential guidance that you need. Even if it is to just get started.
You might even be able to find a group that can help you. There are probably people who are in the same situation you are.
A lot of successful people would be more than willing to help another person succeed. It is a law of nature. When you help someone, that help will come back to you. It might not be from that same person that you helped. But, things happen in strange ways.
All this is possible. But you have to acknowledge your dream first. You have to have a dream before you can have a happy ending. Good luck to you.
Pick a dream…and GO FOR IT!